Indeed a fool of mine

No one knows.

We get some rules to follow. That and this, these and those. No one knows.
We get these pills to swallow. How they stick in your throat, tastes like gold.

Oh, what you do to me
No one knows

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Sunday, June 13, 2010 @ 9:15 AM

back!

Im back.

I had a terrible start today. I was really really exhausted, due to ecp till late midnight ytr.

Mum woke me up really early like 10a.m, gosh and was asked to follow her to gayland.

As usual, i did.

So i just rush and met her sister as well.

Gayland then off to orchard.

Shop, shop and shop.

Okay not really shop for myself, but mostly for her.

Its okay, at least i got this lovely necklace (which cost almost same price as my jeans, which i dont which to fork out money for that thingy), from her.

thankiuuuuuu mummy.

(okay now i sound so bitchy).

Whatever it is, i just got not freaking mood in the morning.

I put up a longggggggggggggggggggg face until

i get home in the afternoon.

Felt bored again,

went starbucks with lovely cousie.

Spent my night there.

Now im home.

wth am i bullshitting now.

ok bye ok bye

Wednesday, June 9, 2010 @ 7:25 PM

thurday morning

I really dont know why my head still feel so heavy and pain.

I am already in school. Final submission is tommorrow but my group plan to hand in our final stuff today. So which means ill be having lil hols break tmr onwards.

So whats my plan for the hols?

For this time round, i really want to stay home.

I wanna get as much rest as i can.

It seems that, its been quite long time since i do that.

I shall start cleaning up my things.

Yea, thats my plan.

Other than that, it gotta be last minute for sure.

okay.

my stomach feel really uneasy now.

I really feel like vomitting.

ohgosh.

bye

9:18 AM

my wednesday went like this

haloha.

I just feel like updating this blog *smiles.

So today, i met my lovely colleagues for casual gathering, ate at (i totally forget the name of the chocolate bar) but yea very yummy. However however, i skipped my dinner and now i feel very dizzy. My head feels so heavy. Wondering how will i stay awake the whole night today for final submission.

Okay,aside from all that, i learnt something new today. Maybe not new to any mac user, but for me. I learnt most of the shortcuts. Gosh, how noob can i be man. isk2(shake head).

Everyone is sleeping right now except for me and my first sister. I bet she gonna sleep any sooner as well. hmmmmmmmmmmmm, i better start doing my last touch up and wrapping up all stuff altogether. Tommorrow will be the last day of school for merely one week of hols. Although its only one week, im still look forward for it =)

Goodnight lovely people in the world!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010 @ 7:32 AM

kepadaNya

wahai manusia

sedarlah dirimu

hidup di dunia

hanya sementara

dekatkan dirimu kepadaNya

Friday, June 4, 2010 @ 8:41 AM

im being open once again

Hello everyone.

I really miss this blog, really miss it so much. It means so much to me back then till now. Ive been going through alot since then. Those freaking old time of mine which made me really mad and hurt was scarred into this blog as well. As times move on, i realised that these are all life story so yea, i still need to move on and i did. I really love the blog layout of this blog as well. No harm continuing this once again. So yeas. hello blogspot -__-

Actually, i gotta be straight and frank right now, actually i really need to tattoo some words on some 'serious' blog right now. Its been so long since i talk to myself. Most of the times, i just stared and dazed about my life and yea, its really not enough. Tumblr doing perfectly fine for me to have inspirations for school stuff. Not for inner thoughts tho, i realised. So yea.

One and a half year i guess, probably more or less, i had gone so far. In fact beyond my limits. Thats for sure. I create and encountered lotsa and lotsa of stupid stuffs which i used to be afraid to do all that. Most people, said ive changed. They bummed into me and told me that. My close friends told me that. Its for me to figure out myself whether if its good or bad.

Frankly i had pushed myself very much. So hard till it actually make me worst i realised. Ive been a bad bad girl i realised. Disrespect and rudeness came out easily from myself. Maybe because im being too defensive. I hate to be hurt again. So in turn, not intentionally, i hurt others. I am very bad. But i am very sorry.

Sometimes, i wished i could turn back time especially during secondary school days which i am very very innocent. I didnt see so much sins in front of me. However theres one thing which i dont wish be again,which is a fragile soul which i used to be back in the past.

Im really sorry for the bad habits that i used to do. I never want to do that again.

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